job hunting...sucks...

So I went and applied at Fancy That today. Everyone, keep your fingers crossed. I really really want to work there! I need to find another job to coincide with the coaching. I'm trying to save money so I can go to Austria for my graduation trip. That's right, forget San Francisco (well don't forget it...put it on hold) I'm going to Austria (assuming I find a job and save enough money!)

So I could just go get an easy holiday job at the mall, but I don't want to work for corporate America, and I could get a big people job, but I don't want to quit coaching. I love coaching...so I think the best kind of job for me is local business. I want to work at a place like Fancy That or Native Roots...I realize these kinds of jobs are more difficult to get and it's all about who you know, but I know some people! If I work at Fancy That, I'll be decorating cakes! How cool is that?

So yeah, back to Austria...the mother land! Cory and I were talking about the San Francisco trip, and we some how got on the subject of traveling...And then we decided that the best trip for us would be Austria! Dad already told me that he would pay for my passport...and all I need to do is save money for my trip! My plan is to live at home with my parents (for as long as my little heart can take it) and save everything that I get...that way I can travel!

The hard part is this though...I really really really want to move out of here as soon as possible. I'm tired of not having my own space (real tired). I almost feel like I'm couch surfing constantly because I'mm never home. I stay at Cory's a lot because I go crazy sleeping here. Plus, I can't make my room at my parents house my own. They have it set up exactly how they want it...and so in turn, it's not my own space...it's a storage guest room at this point. Plus I really really really hate living out of boxes and having half of my stuff in storage.

But enough complaining, because on the upside, I'm not paying rent, food, or hell...I'm not even paying for my gas half of the time. Its rather nice to have a financial break!

We set up the Christmas tree last night. Setting up the tree in the Neel household is a rather stressful event. We all usually argue the entire time. Mom and sister started to argue but I put a halt to that as quickly as possible simply because I didn't want to listen to it. The tree looks nice...it looks like Christmas here. Usually I'm really excited about Christmas, but this year, I just don't know. I'm more looking forward to eating a really nice dinner and enjoying the company of my familly. I think I'm going to try and hang out with Dougy as much as possible. I hung out with Dougy over the break a couple of years ago and it felt SO good!

Cory is going to Denver On Saturday....I'll be "house sitting" for him...meaning, I'm sleeping in the city for 9 days (thank god!) I'll sure miss him. I think he's going to miss me too. He told me the other day that "life wasn't worth much without having somoeone to love". He said this as he was nuzzling against me and cuddling me. He melts my heart. I swear...puppy love is the greatest feeling, and it's the greatest feeling when you haven't had puppy love in a long time, and it's even better when you're not looking for marriage or anything serious.

We had a very serious talk about marriage...I told him exactly how I felt. I don't want to get married, ever. I don't believe that I need a ring around my finger to know that someone loves me. If I am in love, and the person loves me back, then I would rather just spend my time with them. I don't want to go through the stress of planning a wedding or any of that junk. It was incredible to talk to him about how I felt, because he feels the exact same way! We really connected. It was a really special conversation and a very special day that we spent together.

I made him cry. I bought him a cupcake the other day and wrote a little note with it telling him how happy I was to have him in my life and that he makes me feel incredible...and he totally started crying. It was so cute.

Oh geeze, enough mushy gushy...

I'm going to go enjoy a chai with my mom and call Dougy!