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Cory and I went to the MLK Jr parade yesterday. it was so much fun.

Actually, we spent the entire day celebrating.

Festivities started out with breakfast at Classen Grill (we just can't get enough of the fresh squeezed OJ!) If there's one place you will find us frequenting, it's Classen Grill. Then we rode bikes back to his house, tried to get ahold of a few people to celebrate the Kings day...but were unsuccessful, so we rode our bikes downtown and went to Coffee Slingers and got a soda. I thought Coffee Slingers was wierd. The space is wierd, but the employees were very friendly. the space was too open and too white walled for me. Lots of windows which was cool, but it had a very sterile "don't touch anything" feel to the place. It wasn't very inviting. It reminded me of a cross between a hospital and a student union at a community college.

then after that we rode bikes all around town...we hit up some parking garages (super duper fun) and then we posted up on the corner of Hudson and 5th...we thought the parade was supposed to go right by us but the news paper lied about the route. Anyway, we sat and sat and sat for what seemed like forever, then we decided to go to the OKC Bombing memorial. I had never been. I've lived in Oklahoma for 25 years and never been to the memorial. It was pretty neat. The Memorial Museum building however was creepy (we didn't go in)

After that we went back to our little spot on Hudson and 5th and waited another million years, then Cory turns and faces the memorial, and lo and behold the parade is passing by! So we hopped back on our bikes and posted up right infront of a cop!

The parade was cool, it was really long though and we didn't stay for the whole thing because I had to go to work. So we rode back to his house and I went to work. After work I went back to his house and made Salmon, Asparagus, and wild rice for dinner...mmmmm...

You would think I had a super fantastic day, but I didn't I tried really hard, and put my feelings on hold throughout the bike ride, but over all...I was bummed.

I spent a good 30 min yesterday morning (right after breakfast) crying, and then last night cried myself to sleep.

I'm just so stressed out. I have 2 jobs, an internship, school, derby (which is almost like a 3rd job) and I have to manage to find time to get everything done and please everyone. I kept getting phone calls yesterday about derby, and was going insane...and I keep getting emails to go in to my internship when I really can't because I'm either doing a. derby stuff, b. working, or c. trying to catch up on all of my other tasks.

I was also upset because Cory was being a smart ass yesterday. He felt really bad about it today, but you know what? Be frikkin' considerate of others feelings! I try really hard to be considerate of his, and sometimes he just goes into Cory mode and starts being a jack ass.

So far I'm fine today, but I'm not sure how long I'm going to be able to hold out. I feel the tears backing up inside like a river about to bust through a damn. I've got a thousand thoughts a minute in my brain, and my heart feels super heavy for some reason. I can't shake this feeling.

I took myself out to breakfast this morning, I'm actually still here at IHOP trying to stay away from the rest of the world. I'm thinking about taking a mini trip by myself this weekend to get away, I just don't think I can take anymore. I feel like I don't have a day to myself...ever...and when I do, I'm going crazy because I haven't had a day to myself in an EXTREMELY long time and I don't know how to relax!

Double edged sword I guess.

Well, first day of class...better go do some online school crap!