tired

don't know that I really feel like blogging today.

I've been kind of bummed. I've spread myself so thin, and have tried to be super woman for the past however many months now...and don't know if I can take it anymore.

My fine arts library job is awesome, and I think it might be the only thing that I look forward to going to at this point. Swim team is still fun, but I'm just not as enthusiastic anymore because by the time I get there, I'm exhausted.

So then there's derby, and I love it...but for some reason my dumb ass volunteered for all of these different committee's and such...knowing that I already have 2 jobs, an internship, and my last semester of school. With derby, I'm on like four thousand committees! I love derby, but I seriously need to stop volunteering for things. the problem is, I get so excited about the idea of certain things, and I try to jump on opportunities.

Then we have the internship...I don't really want to go too into detail on this...just because there's a lot...but I don't know that I have the time for it anymore...honestly.

We can't forget the fact that I'm constantly driving to the City to either a. see Cory, or b. practice or c. both. I don't even see my friends anymore....because I'm so busy with everything else. That's why I have decided to spend the rest of the week in Norman starting Tuesday. I need to focus.

I cried a lot today...ridiculous!!! If it's not doing school work, I'm contacting sponsors, I'm heading up street team events, I'm working on putting together an exhibit, I'm making and breaking plans with people...it's getting stupid. I want to be able to stick to plans...I really do. But lately, I've been totally un reliable when it actually comes down to hanging out with people.

I'm very good about going to practice, I don't call in sick to work, and I go to class...but for some reason, I can't get it together enough to not break plans with my friends.

I think I'm going to take a day very soon and just sit in my bed!

speaking of bed, I'm tired!